It’s May! Well, it will be tomorrow pending any end of the world doom that might happen in the next few hours. Since April was pretty crazy, I have decided to create a list of some goals that will help me have a successful month! I really want to focus on “self-care” as I feel like I had a rough go of it this month. I need to slow down and refocus on the important things in life!
- Drink at least 32 oz of water a day – I haven’t been drinking water at all!
- Get 7-8 hours of sleep a night – I have been staying up late doing nothing and getting up early. Not good!
- Practice yoga 3 days a week and complete some aerobic exercises 2x a week – yoga is so good for me! I really need to reconnect with it!
- Eat at least 4 servings of fruit and veggie a day.
Other Life Stuff:
- Have 14 no spending days! – I am going to get back on track with this!
- Do one load of laundry and the dishes every night – I have been letting this pile up for the weekend and then I am overwhelmed.
- Limit the amount of time I spend on Hulu and Facebook to 30 minutes a day using the chrome extension “StayFocused”
- Prep of the next day at night – I hate mornings. This should help me hate them less.
I have been blessed beyond belief with countless mini-miracles in my life. Overall, I probably have everything I dreamed of as a young child. Sadly, I think its human nature to be ungrateful and constantly in search for something different and/or better. Lately, I have fallen into this syndrome and have become disappointed in the daily state of my life. My mind constantly is trying to figure out some perceived problem whether its financial, family or physical. How can I get my daily workouts in? How can I get all the things I need to do at work done and leave in time to make the good yoga classes? How can I keep my blood pressure down if I don’t exercise? How can I eat right when I am tired of making green smoothies? Can I even afford organic spinach? How am I going to get my kids to all their activities? How can I get them in the things I always wanted them to do like martial arts and piano? How can I stay in budget this month? What about this year?
Last week, I couldn’t come up with solutions and found myself just shutting off from the world. I took some sick days from work. I told my husband to take the kids to their activities or they would miss them. I skipped working out and stopped making my “good for me/tastes bland” smoothies. As I laid in bed, I continued to search for answers and kept coming back to the same circular logic: Do I just quit my job so I have freedom to workout and spend time with the kids? How can I quit my job when we barely can afford the lifestyle we have now? For days, my mind went around and around trying to find a way out. There didn’t seem to a solution. A week later and I still don’t know how to fix this. However, I have finally decided to just be okay with this conundrum. I have one more year to get through with my current situation with the kids in two separate schools and paying for daycare. I’ll continue to job search even if I get rejected constantly. I don’t have to work out everyday if its adding stress to my life.
With that, I have accepted that I wont meet my no spending goal this month of 13 days. Also I am only able to pay for 1/2 the unexpected medical bills that came in. However, I am going to celebrate that with all the twists and turns in bills and budgets, we will end this month spending almost exactly how much we made. The credit card is at zero still even with a few Starbucks runs! Next month might be better; it might be worse. Either way, I am going to continue to try! That’s all that I can figure out for now.
Sometimes life just seems unmanageable. Lately I have been struggling to do the things I normally enjoy. I haven’t had any interest in writing my daily posts or doing yoga. I am not really sure what is going on but I just am feeling overwhelmed with all the things I normally do a good job of balancing. I felt like my daily life as a mom and wife is suffocating me. I spend all of Saturday cleaning the house and just couldn’t get myself to do laundry and cook on Sunday. Maybe I am coming down with some nasty bug. Maybe I am burnt out. I need to get out of this slump soon, but I am not sure how to do it.
Friday and Saturday – No spending. 9 down, 4 to go. Since then, I’ve been buying myself little treats to cheer me up (mostly Starbucks). I’ll get back on the horse.